All of this intrigues me, but no one would make the mistake of saying I am omniscient because that would be impossible.
Recently, I was in an argument involving rules of the Hmong culture. The person in question is living in Western society, which was taken over by the Europeans hundreds of years ago. It made me feel that this person was being condemned to their own culture because they had to abide by the rules set by elders thousands of years ago. I feel that this person should do what they feel is right and wrong. Are morals and ethics innate or learned? Again, it is a combination. It should not be based on culture, but rather, it should be based on human customs and traditions.
I am a believer in naturopathic medicine and in somatics. I learned that counselling is really only half the equation. Somatics is a form of alternative medicine that allows a person to temporarily change from being left-brained to being right-brained by applying exercises that involve intuition. It will make one feel less depressed once the neurones start communicating steadily. Here is how I see depression.
The symbol of Depression:
Imagine the thinking area of the brain as a large landscape with several islands in the middle of an ocean. Across each island lies a bridge so that one may cross the ocean to get to the other island. The islands represent neurones, and the ocean represent the synapse, or the gap between one neuron to another neuron. The bridge represents the neurotransmitter. There are different types of bridges. And certain things can flow in certain directions.
In the case of depression, most of the bridges that allow fast-moving traffic collapse, leaving the ones which withstand slow-moving traffic remaining. Now traffic has a limited number of options to get from one island to another. This keeps happening until all but one bridge collapses, leaving the traffic stranded on certain islands. Now, that one bridge that did not fall, there is still a bit of traffic going through, but it can get to only one place, until it starts crowding the other members. This keeps happening until that whole island is occupied and cannot withstand any more people.
This is how thoughts get crowded into one or few neurones, when the cell runs out of space, the brain becomes slow-moving and this leads negative thoughts to travel down the one bridge that did not collapse. Negative thoughts are represented by traffic with frowns painted on the auto or whatever that was coming through it. The positive thoughts have smiley faces painted on them. It causes certain depression hormones to be released, and This process is known as mental-imaging, a technique psychologists use to help patients recover from major illnesses like cancer. I believe that rest-and-repair hormones are our body’s natural medicine that helps us heal faster. So, the way we can get that happening is if we were nurtured while we were sick, if we slept more, etc. Actually, it has been shown that certain healing chemicals are released during sleep.
There is only so much room for these things to move around, so we need to build more bridges that collapsed, so that these thoughts can resume flowing from one island to another island. So, the bridge which stands fast-moving traffic is the one that supports happy and positive thoughts because things just move so fast. The bridge that supports slow-moving traffic is the one for negative and more solemn thoughts.
Now, here is how I look at genes. I believe that genes are like the blueprints to building a house. When someone follows these plans step by step, they will have a well-built house. But let us suppose the house needed some bits and tips to help it adapt to the environment. These changes are added to the plan. The next thing you know, the same plan is passed onto the next builder, and they, too, develop that same house. Then they also have to make adaptations to help it survive in that climate. They make these changes in the plans. Keep this going until you have a combination of plans going. Some people will choose to build their house out of two plans altogether. But, let us say that something went wrong. When the house was finished, it had flaws that could not be fixed without tearing the house down and rebuilding it. But what went wrong? Were the instructions messed up along the way? Did the plans get wet and somehow we skip something? Or did the builders forget to read something important? Maybe it was the development of the wood.
And that , my friends, is how I believe genes work. If someone tells you that your imperfections has unknown origins, it probably means that your body overlooked the directions. I do not think science should give up in finding these. The good news is that we can actually rewrite our genetic coding with gene therapy. Some studies suggested that if your grandparent was abusive, their hormone levels were going to be written into their genes, some of their muscular memory, or their sense of evil altogether. There is a chance that you would get those same feelings. Somatics can actually rewire your genetic coding in a way that nothing else can.
When we were little, we did not care what our playmates identified with. We did not know if they were coloured, Christian, was scary, fat, or smelled, and yet, over time we end up learning it because of the way our society is based. We simply did not know this because we did not know the language, we did not know the concepts to differentiate, but now we need glasses, deodorant, clothes, medicine, one book, and specific cultures to identify with. We are all like animals, it is that simple, really. But why has this become a major concern? Because of the European movement and because of things that increased as things developed over time, like Western civilisation. There were all kinds of revolutions that took place; some good, some bad, and some neutral depending on their intentions. As I said above, we give ourselves these labels and titles so we can group up from the rest of the majority because we face rejection elsewhere. This way we can fight back as one force. Also, what makes blind people feel that they were created to be blind for a reason? I feel that the sighted population is taking too much advantage of its vision, and I think children need to be taught a lot more sensory experiences so that they could learn how to navigate in a dark house when there is a power outage. What makes a person scared of the dark? Are the feelings innate or learned? Can some people be afraid of the silence? https://www.sciencealert.com/here-s-the-evolutionary-reason-why-we-re-afraid-of-the-dark I remember being afraid of certain noises myself, not because they were loud, but because of their sinister sounds. Why, if you close your eyes, the activity in your visual system stops and the activity will take over your temporal lobes. That is why, when we kiss and dream we close our eyes. I wonder how people can see in the dark like cats? Sometimes, when I move my hand in front of my face, I can either feel the heat radiating off my skin or I can become aware of something inside my head moving, but this is just a cognitive response. It allows us to be more intuitive. It is just one more reason to believe that sight and sound is a lot more relevant than what we imagined.
I was recently involved in a discussion about learning disabilities, and I was trying to find ways to understand, by using science, what it is like to constantly face someone correcting your spelling when you can’t help it, or how hard it can be to explain some things. If we know more we can find a cure. Some people say that science can only do so much, yet it would not be fair to overwrite a person’s mind with another that was uploaded. I heard somewhere that scientists stimulated the left side of a person’s brain, and it was someone who was terrible at math. After the stimulation, though, things were more clear to them. I personally think this could have good potential in transmitting missing information to the end-user. It could help caregivers and people willing to learn a new sense without undergoing invasive surgery. While we were discussing this, it occurred to me that bragging, boasting and showing off are seen as offensive in our culture, yet I am only being myself, and that is what I am trying to get across. I believe in coping with the harshness of reality, and dreaming of ways to make it better. How can some people be so mature in terms of knowledge and wisdom, and not show off at the same time? I tend to subconsciously flourish my skill skills and abilities because I want to show them that I am no different than anyone else, and that I want to show them that although I am myself, I feel compassions for those who need it. There may be more reasons for this, though, but it is hard for geniuses to deal with.
The concept of how everything derives is interesting. Anthropology is such a broad field that it allows you to know about the whole world. Someone told me that I already have one of the skills, as someone who writes and documents everything that happened so that I could go back in time in my journal and diary. I was interested in learning about the development of names to living and non-living things, how the common and folk names derived from Latin, Greek and other language-based names. The concept of idea is also fascinating. Ideas are infinite and are based on both language and sensation. Scientists cannot tell you what you are thinking, but they can sense what you are perceiving or doing. Louis Sachar wrote this in his ‘The Cardturner’ novel, and I am fascinated by the idea of synchronicity, for I have experienced it a wide number of times. We as humanity are able to be fully self-aware, and we do not even need to see ourselves to be self-aware. Blind people can feel themselves, they think, therefor they are who they are. We can mix several concepts together to make a whole new concept, like two and two makes four. But that is just a rule that derived like everything else. All of this gets written into our code, the feelings that makes things feel familiar. Sometimes I wonder if there was another system of time that creatures used before the human race evolved.
That brings me to a new topic. I was thinking about combining two different animals of different sexes and see what happened. My belief is that creatures evolved when say, for example, humans derived from a combination of apes and monkeys. Kind of like what happens when you combine a horse and a donkey, though the offspring turned out to be sterile.
A few weeks ago, there was an internet troll who was making rude insults about the blind community, particularly targeting women in the community because of their lack of security. I thought about using hard science to stop the drama instead of the obvious. Why, I heard of people who were proud to be completely left-brain, but that usually means trouble. What I find interesting is how we know how our brains work when we are using our brains to think.
Having said all this, how can we assure our friends that they should be more open-minded and more aware? How can a traumatic event make us act the way we do? Definitions should include more broader terms on an intersectional stance instead of focused ones. Why do some people feel like they are being thrust into groups when they do not want to share their stories to strangers? It hurts to say goodbye to someone that was so close to you. A friend, partner, a trusted one. To go from love to in love, in love to love, and friends to strangers is painful, but what also hurts is not knowing why. Why was not my friendship acceptable or maybe unable to accept it I do not know. To say goodbye to someone so close and dear only to have this book placed back on the shelf collecting dust once again while the market opens up eventually.
One of the things I was made aware is how families and friends differ. People say friends are temporary and families are forever, yet some feel like we did not have a real family. I think friends and families should be both forever, but friendship changes as you get older, as I have said. Every family differs in its unique way. They are more than just people that relate to one another, and again, we learn this when we are little. We learn who our family members are and how they are related using language, yet science says that babies recognise their mother’s voices. I wish that there were a simpler way of understanding your harritage using a family tree and using simple concepts until you have a good understanding. However, some families either abuse the person who is different or shelter them. When I meet perfect families I envy them because I feel so akin to them than I do to my own. For instance, I was visiting a musical family and I instantly felt at home. This is because my mother has to constantly look after my deaf-blind and developmentally-disabled older brother and we hardly have time for each other. There is also the fact that we identify in so many different ways. Some people are taught to keep to themselves instead of getting involved in support groups because they do not want to admit that they are different; they just know that they have to do this or that because if they did not they would suffer tremendously.
Enough with the gloomy mood. I hope that those who misunderstand me can realise that I am just like they, that they can forgive me. We all feel the need to be better than other humans, but it is for the way that you provoke one’s thoughts that does it. That is to say, there are many reasons why I am this way while they have very little reasons as to why they are this way. In writing I am able to say so much because of the way I am detached from my family most of the time. I recently got a Mason and Hamlin pump organ, a classic I believe, and I got it restored, but sadly, some of the reeds are starting to shrink. It is sad that very few people today know how to really restore organs, though I am thankful that those who are still around are teaching young enthusiasts like myself how to do it. I have started an internet radio stream here on my Icecast server. I will be airing this upcoming holiday season. In my next post I will talk about my problems with screen readers.